Project as a labratory

My project has really always been a lab from the beginning. Not as far as creating an experiment and documenting it, but because of my multiple trials and errors, and my idea to reinvent the process many times.

My project began as a photo-a-day type of project, I wasn't really sure where it was going but I thought it sounded like a good idea. After about a week I wasn't feeling any motivation, and so I wanted to adapt it to be more of a creative, and less of an every day thing. I went about trying to set up shoots with people so I could go through with all of these visions that I had, but we all know that as a college student planning things outside of class that isn't homework is not the easiest thing to do.

Finally, I was sitting in another class before ours, and it hit me. I wanted to learn from everything that I had experienced, and I wanted to tell everyone else about it. I wanted to do this 'project about projects' to show how important it is to not start a project until you have a clear vision, and how your main idea may not be as easy as you thought.

I began to think of what I could do that would show the process of a project, and then I remembered a blog that I had previously created within blogger, because I wasn't educated in any other blog hosting sites, and how I had originally wanted to create a 'zine' type website, but didn't really know what I was doing.

I had updated my site on blogger many times, and each time I did I became more and more unhappy with what the outcome was looking like, but I was still too afraid to venture to other sites.

Now, this project was my chance. I could finally turn something that I was interested in, and something that I wanted to improve, into what I really wanted it to be. I finally had the time, now I just needed the resources. And who better to ask than a blog-extraordinare herself?

We began searching for these sites, and I found a few that looked like more of what I wanted, but kept looking, doing google search after google search, until I finally found one that I liked.

I began using this site and everything seemed to fit together. I had the freedom that I wanted, but I wasn't completely clueless. I was confident in what was coming out, and I was proud to show this to people.

The move from blogger to weebly was the best choice I have made in terms of my website. When I was finally done moving and styling everything, it felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders, and then I realized: this is what this project is supposed to be about. exploration.

it all makes sense now. welcome to my laboratory.

This is a lab that will always be continuing until I have to confidence to have my own domain, my own dotcom site that I can have complete creative control over. I am close, but I do not have this knowledge yet. This will bring more steps of trial and error, more experiments, more labs, until I have everything where I want it. And after this I am sure I will have 1000 new ideas for new labs, because once I waited to get this inspiration, it was all easy.
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Questions of Poams:

1. When you read a poem(poam) you decide how it is supposed to be in your mind. How it sounds, how it looks, what the tone is. I was just writing a paper about this earlier today because I went to see a poet called Emily XYZ who does 'two-voice' poetry, where two people are saying different things at the same time, and sometimes the same thing at the same time, in a rhythm. If you were to read these poems it would be a completely different experience than if you were to hear them, because you have no idea how the poet intended for the poem to sound if you do not know them personally, and in almost all cases, you do not know the poet.

2/3. You can discover new things about a poem that maybe even the poet did not intend by reading it. You can read it many times, and you can see how the poem looks (is it a shape? are the lines short? are there stanzas?) and you can pay attention to words that are repeated, or ones that you may not recognize. You can access a part of your mind and a way of thinking that would not be present in hearing a poem or even reading a poem out loud. It would be the same if you were to hear a song, and see the lyrics of a song without hearing the music, a completely different experience.